My Clock Tower

o.o I sure hope Val's 'parameters' dont mean he isn't allowed to dance anymore...o.o cause the school said I was supposed to dance a special dance with Val for all the new kids (us too!) Dad was gonna help an stuff...but if Val cant dance then I dont want to. He's MY dance partner and it'd be weird dancing alone...I'd be very sad.

My shoes aren't dirty....or messy, or tatty, or old. They are worn, and loved, and tenderly used. I might need new shoes...but I love MY shoes....Val made me these shoes, and I dont want some dumb store bought shoes. I want the shoes my rice husband made me. With all the efford and little pinpricks where he accidentally pricked himself and got a little blood on it but I never pointed it out, because they're red and full of love (and blood <3)

I dont want new shoes...but maybe worn, loved, tenderly used shoes aren't the same after so many years...

I miss Val, an school, and eating dates.

Dad said it'd only be a little while, but I still don't like it.  It's all goldy looking here, and icky.  I miss Val....there's nothing to do here.  Mom and I have our own rooms and stuff...I mean we're not living in icky...but it's not home.  I miss HOME.  I don't know why we had to leave.  Dad looked so sad though...

I couldn't complain, cause he looked so sad.  Dad really likes uncle Xel and Miss Dragon, and Val, and everyone and he's pretty sad we had to go. 

Now that stupid girl at Val's school has him all to herself!  T.T  If she steals him away I'mma bite her very hard.

*sniffsniff*  Val was leavin' me! 

I saw him!  He said not to forget him.  Big fat stinker!  *sniffsniff*  but he came back...*sniff*  so I forgive him for being a stinker.

Big brother and Miss Mercy are bringing me home, cause Val broke me.  He did. he broke my body thingy, and now I'm just a puffy fluffy cloud...*Sniff*

Val growed up to be very strong...I got to see him all strong an stuff.  Hee *sniff*  he's just like uncle Xel too.  Strong, but not all fatty lookin' like the hairy guys who were workin' on our home.

My head hurts a little...but I don't wanna bother big brother right now.  He's smilin' too much and it'd make him frown.

Miss Mercy looks so pretty in her dress...I bet he's real happy, cause she looks like a queen!  I wonder if I was pretty in my dress...

Guess it doesn't really matter, cause I'm a kid again huh?  I can still be pretty, just different pretty huh?

I don't mind, boys can be funny when they wont leave you alone cause you're pretty.  I like only one boy not leavin' me alone, and he doesn't bother me at ALL!  <3

I hope he'll play dominos with me when I'm normal again.  It was MY turn to knock em over last time, and Rezo did it on accident.  

S'my turn now.

Everyone's been so concerned that I'm ok.  I'm glad they care so much...but I'm so confused...

Big brother and Miss Mercy came with me to watch me while I go to school.  It's interesting living with him and not dad.  o.o listen.

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Hear that?  Hear it?  Exactly!  It's so quiet and peaceful!  Without dad and uncle Xel, it's like...weird. o.O  But weird in a good way I think.  I still miss the noise, but it's nice to have quiet sometimes too.  Now I know why mom goes and meditates every morning and tells dad to STAY HOME.  Because he likes quiet too.  

Big brother talks to me a lot...and he says I need time to sort myself out.  He said the demon thing that took me away has me very confused, and that I should try very hard to put myself together.

I think he means because I remember things.  I remember Val...but I also remember Felix.  I remember being little, but I also remember being big.

It's confusing, because it's hard to tell what is real memories, and what's not.  I'm trying to figure it out though, and Big brother's helping me when I'm not studying.  My headaches aren't as bad as they used to be.  I'm glad for that, because it was so painful I used to cry...now it's only numbing painful, where loud noises can bother me.

I miss Val.....he hates me now *sniffle* I don't think I like any demons other than dad and uncle Xel.  I don't think I like them at all.

I hate em.  Because they made everything different and painful...

I wish I was how I used to be....I'm not entirely sure how that was, because it's hard to remember...but I want that back, because I'm sure everything was happier, better...more fun when I was how I used to be.

The only thing good about being big, is that I can reach things, and that I look nice in dresses, to boys.  Mom said the one foot rule goes triple while I'm away T.T it makes it very hard to get to school on Felix's broom, because he has to sit waaaaaaay at the back and I sit waaaaaaay at the front....poor guy.

T.T I wish Val was big, he could just fly me there.  He's strong...I know he is.  I'm sure I remember him being the strongest guy alive.  Even stronger than Uncle Xel.

(OOC:  Again lol Cinderella-esque cure is that lol she dance with Val.  lol one night of teenism then back to kids.  LOL then she'll be like o.o didja see us?!  we was big....lets go paint'  *attentionspan gone now*  so yeah.  lol there are other options of course XD if you dont want to do that.  Basically she just needs someone she really is close to, to do something she's very used to.  Dancing with Val is my first choice, because....ballet <3  smoochies <3  erm yes.  Second would probably be Xel, or Rezo, playing with her or something.  Things she's used to doing with them on a daily basis.)

I've been kidnapped by strange people, who claim they know me.  They killed Mr. K, and worse yet, they will not let me take my medicine.  My head is throbbing, I am near tears the pain is so intense, and yet they wont let me have the medicine I need to make the pain stop.

I think I am having 'the worst day of my life' right now.  I've missed class, poor Felix is probably worried sick since he was my ride home, Mr. K has been murdered by my captors, my medicine has been taken from me, I've been kidnapped by murderous psychopaths who have speech impediments (and one green one that keeps popping out of the purple one's bags), I can hardly think straight my head is hurting me so badly, that purple dunderhead RUINED my pretty new stockings, and I'm going to miss the halloween dance.  (OOC: lmfao.  Priorities. XD)

And my test....I studied so hard for it, and now I get an automatic 10 point deduction!  T.T  Life sucks.  I'm not ever talking to these people again!  ESPECIALLY that red one, because he started it. hmmph!

Tick tock goes the clock
and yet her 'saviors' merely talk...

Tick tock with a chime
little angel's losing time....

Tick tock with a hand
minds a reeling, with no plan.

Tick tock to the hour
Soon the wind beast's family will sour...

Tick tock time does pass
little brat'll be gone alas.

BWA HA HA HA HA time's ticking away, and you still have no clue where precious 'Tuc' is.  

Tick Tock boys...Tick Tock

I don't like strangers...especially the ones who came to my journal today, leaving nasty messages.  I told Mr. K about it, and he said that I should ignore them.  Especially since they're trying to lure me away from home, I'm sick and should stay inside, and only go out at night.

I'm not gonna go outside until it's very dark, if I go outside.  I sleep most of the day away anyway, because I'm so tired and sick.  Mr. K gives me lots of medicines and magic for my headaches, and I spend a lot of time dreaming.  I like dreaming, it's fun, because I can dream of anything I want.  I dreamed I was flying once.  It was amazing.

I don't know...maybe I will go out tonight.  Mr. K said if I got hungry, to buy some food for myself, as long as it's at night time.  The clock tower always gongs twice at night...that's when I'll go out and get some snacks.  I am hungry, and I'd love one of the delicious boxed lunches they sell at the store.

I'll be sure to run, so I get there before they close.  Oh, Mr. K is here with my medicine now, I have to go to sleep now. bye!

(OOC:  bwa ha ha ha ha ha and now for Mr.K's response to Xel, since miss Tuc is now lol asleep)

Oh well hello there Xelloss, are you missing something?  Ha ha ha ha she's mine now.  It's only a matter of time now, before she's gone.  Just a few more doses of this 'medicine' and.... heheheheee! Ah ha ha ha ha ha ha!  You'll never find her.  She'll disappear into the twilight forever...It's so funny, how the most efficient demon on Ruby has fallen from his own demonic graces.  You're nothing anymore...nothing but a bleeding heart.

Maybe you could recover from your downward spiral, but I doubt it...and certainly not in time to save this one's soul.  Just one more night...one more day of dreaming, and she'll be gone for good.  Out of your reach entirely.  By midnight tonight, she'll be gone and you....ah hahahahahaheee!  You will be left with a broken family.  I will have succeeded in my mission, and you will lose EVERYTHING.

You, lesser beast are in your death throws.  There is no redemption for you this time.  How does it feel, to watch everything unwinding around you?  That pretty little web of lies you've surrounded yourself with, that comforting little nest of 'l-o-v-e' ?  Enjoy it for one last day, because it will soon be gone.  For you are the bad guy aren't you?  Demon.

Hello there.  Look what a beautiful journal I have.  I like it, I'm going to write anything I want in it.  I'm going to put pictures in it too.  It's nice to write things in places.  It helps you remember things I think.  I hope so anyway.  I should talk about me a little huh?

Well um...lets see.  I live in a big city, there's a clock tower here.  I like that clock tower, it makes the whole city come to life in the mornings, and go to sleep in the evenings.  I actually have a picture of me on the clock tower.  I'll show it later, when I'm done.

Ummm...lets see...uhhh I live with Mr. Kradimar, he's kinda like a dad for me I guess.  He feeds me, and keeps me safe and stuff, so I guess he's my 'dad' kind of.  I don't really go out much, I'm kind of sick, but that's alright, because I have a great big window, and I can watch people outside.  I can go out at night time, if I want to, but I don't really want to go out often.  I'd rather stay home.

Oh yeah, I get terrible headaches a lot, but Mr. K knows magic that makes them go away, so it's not so bad.  I take lots of naps, because of the headaches.   That's why I'm so sick, but Mr. K says the headaches will go away soon, so I don't mind.  Napping is fun anyway, because I have the coolest dreams.

Dreaming is fun, I could dream away all my days.  Well I'll tell you all about my dreams later, because it's nap time again for me, because I've got a headache again.

Here's that picture I promised.



That's my dress.  I like it,   Isn't the clock tower pretty?  It never shows the right time though....I wonder why...

(OOC:  Due to laziness, I lol will explain this post for ya XD  It's to be taken as if the entire journal had been wiped clean suddenly.   XD I didn't feel like deleting all my old posts, lol I did enough changing the style.  I beez lazy.  Anyway.  That's why this is an introduction post.  LOL Take this entry as if there were nothing in the journal anymore.  Also, I am aware the picture lol looks a bit older than we've described them.  Again purposeful.  I Very much like this picture and lol I can squeeze it into the rp XD  Specifically, I like the dress.  I'm thinking of making one similar to wear to an anime convention.  Note this young girl has no pendant, nor halo...but her dress does have magic looking glowing runes on her dress.  LOL and the black ribbons.  (LOL at the massive ribbon in back.  IF I do make this dress, I think I might downplay that part juuuuust a touch.  erm anyway!) lol I liked this pic enough to finally use the mojo it inspired somewhere.)

My uncle Xel is...interesting.  When he's hungry he eats bad energy.  So when he's real hungry an no one's sad, I get ta call him funny names.

Dad told me once that uncle Xel doesn't mind at all.  I hope not, cause he's the bestest person alive.  I really love my uncle Xel, and I dont REALLY think he's a stinker (well...he IS a stinker, but a good one.) and all the other stuff I said last night.  He's a hero.  He saved me from bein all alone, an got me my mom and dad (and Val. <3)

Val an I are beloafed.  When we get older, we're gonna get married.  I hope I get older quick.  i wanna marry him and throw rice and have rice thrown an eat cake.  (hee mom said when I get married, I should smear Val's face with the cake.  I wont though, cause he's a gentleman.)

Val's so romeo-mantic.  <3 After all the fighting was done, we went and sat on the roof and ate dates, and he cuddled me.  He's super comfy and warm, an I like his hugs best of ALL.  Cause his hugs are specialer than anyone elses.

Big brother's in love too, did you know?  hee.

He loves Miss Mercy, the flower maid from town.  She's not very rich, but she's very pretty, and she works real hard.  I think he likes that, and that she's so polite.He goes out a lot to see her, and he bought her an expensive seeing-stick.  It was VERY pretty.

He also asked me to give her vision with my first miracle...I was hoping to give him vision...*sniffle*  but if he wants me to use it on her, then I will, cause I just wanna make him happy.

I caught a cold.  Mom said that's what it's called.  I'm not cold, but I have snuffles and sniffles and I dont much like colds.  They're stinkers.  Not good stinkers like big brother, or uncle Xel...no these are the stinky stinkers!  I hate colds lots!

Dad's been teachin me a new dance too.  ...it's HARD o.o

So many steps and new moves!  I keep fallin on my butt!  *giggle*  Dad says when Val and I are older, he'll let us dance that dance together.  But...o.O I'm not sure how that'd work out.  There's not much liftin goin on...but lots of wigglies!  Hee...I feel like one of those silly 'wiggles'  that Sid likes.

I wonder if he's gonna teach Val the 'wigglies' too?  HEE!  I bet we both'd look silly!  I might ask dad to tape us both, so we can watche eachother lookin silly.  *sniffle*  it'd make me laugh from my sicky sick bed.

Big brother comes in though, and cuddles me and sings to me and massages my wings o.o  He's very good, almost as good as mom!  And he brings me soupy lunches and drinks soup with me.  He drinks his soup in a cup though...isn't that weird ?  o.O

Hee, My dad’s back.  It took three years, but he came back!

 

He’s told me lots of interestin’ stories this morning!  He’s amazing.  He says he’s gonna find a way to not have to do what L-sama says anymore.  I’m worried about him.

 

L-sama’s the boss.  You GOTTA do what SHE says…but dad’s smart…so maybe he WILL find a way…I hope he does.  I hope we can all be a happy family. 

 

It was great to see big brother healed and smiling.  It was great to see uncle Xel smiling too.  I missed those.  I’m so glad, Val and I have a dance show soon.  He’s nervous, but I know he’ll do good.  He’s gotten SO strong!  He keeps up, and dances good.  We’ll be the best in the show for sure!

 

(plus, he’s so cute dancing. Hee.  I love that lil’ crown he wears, cause we’re doin’ the dance from swan lake.  We’re gonna be Princess Tuc and Prince Val!  I’m gonna be his princess!  Just like big brother’s story!)

 

I’ll loan big brother my halo for it.  I want him to see us dance.  I want big brother to see that…it’s important to me. 

 

I want him to see that I’ve grown a little bit, that I dance even more beautifuller than I did when I was younger, and because he missed so many dances while he was sick.  I don’t blame him, ‘cause he was sick.

 

But I’m going to make up for it, by dancing the most beautiful I have ever danced.  Val too, he promised me he’d dance his best too.  For Dad, for uncle Xel, and for big brother.

 

We’re gonna knock your socks off!

 

You just wait!  They’ll whoosh off, just like if I pinched uncle Xel.  Hee….he’s cute when ya pinch him, he makes a squeak, and scrunchity face.

There's always another rainbow,
Search until you find it.
Don’t look at the cloud look behind it,
there’s a rainbow there somewhere...

There’s always a ray of sunshine,
Though it all seems tragic...
You may turn around and like magic!
There's an answer to your prayer!

Now you feel forlorn,
but hope can be reborn...
Try and lose that frown...
Look up!
Not down....

And you'll find another rainbow,
I can guarantee it!
Even though you think you've reached your rainbow's end.....
There's ALWAYS another rainbow....
Always another rainbow 'round the bend...

 

Dad taught me that.  He sang it to me when I was sad.  Everyone’s bein’ real nice to me…like I’m the only one hurtin’, but really everyone’s hurtin’.

 

Dad taught me ‘nother song too.  I’ll show ya. He sang it the night I was upset cause I thought I was bad…but I think Uncle Xel needs this song more than I did…

 

No one’s in a fix like I am

(I am.)

No one has the luck I do

(I do.)

No one had the setbacks I have

(I have.)

Look where life has led me to.

(Me too...)

 

Nothing I can see can help me.

(Help me.)

And with all that we’ve come through…

(Come through.)

I wish this was a dream so I could wake up…

(Wake up!)

But what good will wishing do?

 

Nothing I can see can help me.

(Help me.)

 

Somebody will save you!

 

Who?

(Who?  Who?)

 

I wish there was some cozy little inn near

(In HERE!)

But what good will wishing do?

(It might make your dream come true!)

 

Like dad said that night.  Feelin’ sorry for ourselves isn’t gonna ‘prove the sitichitation.  If he’s dead, or live, we should keep on goin’ cause he’da wanted that.  Like dad said, that cozy lil’ inn is in yer heart an ya gotta keep hold of it real tight, cause if ya take it fer granted you’ll lose it.

 

Everyone’s in a fix like you is.  Everyone has the lucks you do.  Everyone’s got yer setbacks uncle Xel.  We’re here too!  Stop runnin’ away now kay?  We’ll come through together! 

 

I wish it was a dream so I could wake up too, but is not, so ya gots ta wake up ta reality and face it too…an I’ll save YOU this time.

I asked mom if I could help.  Mom said I'm too little to be more than a nuisance to Rezo's studies...so I gots ta stay home.  I still want ta help though....so I'm gonna dance.

I'mma use magic. *whisper* don't tell mom or Val, he'd feel bad if he couldn't dance with me!

Is magic dance, an even though is supposed ta be with two, Val doesn't know the steps, so I gots ta dance it alone.  If I do good, then it'll work an my big brother will feel fully rested and ener...um....energyed.

<3 <3 <3

Then he'll find dad for sure!

I hope dad's ok...

I think Big brother’s sick.  He’s been really sleepy lots…and his head’s been hurtin’.  I hope he’s ok…he also ran into a wall too…I hope he’ll let me help.  I’m small but I’m good!  I can help too!

 

I gots bandaids.

 

So THERE!

I mean it!

I'll make it better for Big brother, or I'll call mom!  Mom'll make it better if I cant.  Mom knows medicine!

Also....<3  Val's 'mazin.

Dad had ta go away, mom said.  He had ta go help someone else.  I hope dad comes home soon.  I miss’im but I know he’ll come home juss as soon as he can.  Dad loves candy WAY too much ta stay away long.

 

I guess I’ll have ta find pretty songs from here ta dance to…cause with dad gone I gots no more beautiful music ta dance to…maybe big brother knows of pretty songs, an Uncle Xel. 

 

Dad looked so sad ta go.  I told him if he was sad he shouldn’t go, but he said he had ta go.  I guess sometimes dads do stuff they don’t wanna, ‘cause they gotta.

 

Is ok though, I’ll save candies for dad.  I’ll save him a whole candy a night.  He’ll have tons of candies even if he’s only gone a ‘lil while, then he’ll be SO happy!  <3 I love dad’s big doofy grin when he eats candies.  (S’pecially when it’s chocolate.  He’s messy!  Hee!)

 

He told me ta be a big girl an take care of mom an Uncle Xel an Rezo.  I’m gonna do that.  I’ll take good care of mom an Uncle Xel an big brother.  I will hug them all twice as much, just like dad never left!  They’ll still get just as many hugs.

 

I could sing too…but I’m not very good at singin’.  I’ll just dance.  I’ll dance super pretty for them.  (S’pecially if Val’s dancin’ with me…<3)

 

I love ya dad!  I hope where ever you’re goin’ that you come back soon!

 

T’day I met a scary lady with a blind kid, an lots of other scary people outside.  Big brother protected me though…he’s ‘mazin’.  I love big brother.  Val an I danced too.  AN THEN!  Oh oh an THEN big brother made it very roman tick.  <3 <3 <3

 

Val put his wings over me, and cuddled me….I never wanted ta stop huggin’ him.  He’s so warm an cozy an poetic.  Hee…but then big brother got tired…so we healed him, and then we all decided ta nap with him so Val an I curled up on either side of big brother and took a good nap!

 

(Ya know is a good nap when you wake up and ya feel like you could do ANYTHING!  Hee!)

Look how she jumps while in point. <3 thass hard.

I can do it too, but I dun like doin it cause is hard, and it hurts! But I do it cause is beautiful...

ya ever notice guys never stand on tippytoes? hee I think is cause boy toes aren't strong enough....cept uncle Xel. He's got girl toes, so he can do it...an dad, cause he's got girl toes too.

Mom teases him, cause dad's tickly at his toes. he giggles really high pitched and dorky soundin. it's great! I love my dad's giggles.

I love Val too. You aint a stinker. Just that mean red-head poopydoodle...um...Gobb? Bob? job?

He's icky stinker doodoo for bein' mean ta me an Rezo. I dun like 'im.

Hee I dont like her clothes much, but she does dance nice. <3

Someone needs ta tell her tho, wearin THOSE kinda shoeses will hurt your toes dancin ballet.

She needsa pair of Val-slippers like I gots.

(I love Val.)

I wonder if anyone makes funna Val for dancin' ballet with me...I wonder if anyone at his school-thing even knows. o.o

I bet not. hee, I bet he doesn't practice dancin at school, cause he's busy learning.

Is best, I don't want him ta be made fun of. He has the prettiest wings...I want ta preen em for him...maybe today I'll cuddle up to him an preen his big wings for him. <3 <3

hee hee, then he can preen mine! Mine aren't as hard, cause they're not so big as Val's wings. hee my wings are teenier than his.

I love dancing with Val most of all, even if Xel's better at it. He's too doofy *giggle* Val's serious an stuff. He does so super good even though he's not perfect. (I like that tho. 'Cause that means he'll practice more with me...and I'll spend more time with him!)

I hope no one ever makes funna Val for dancin' with me. I'd stomp em! I will! Even if they're....outside....I'll stomp em good!

Heee heee!

Lookie there.

They're SMOOOOCHIN!

I bet Uncle Xel an Miss Dragon dance like THAT o.o

*giggle giggle* (someday I'mma dance with Val like that. hee hee hee, sure hope he doesn't drop me tho...that'd ruin all the happy kisses o.o )

T'day, I think I did somethin' wrong.  I don't know what I did...but I could see it in Val's eyes, an big brother's um...dim mean or.

I don’t understand what happened…but I don’t like how Val looked upset.  I don’t like it at all…I don’t wanna be the one that makes him look like that.  I feel like I’ve been bad, and I don’t even know what I did…I wish someone’d tell me.  Then maybe I could not be bad again.

 

I asked dad…an he sang for me ta make me feel better.  His song was kinda sad.  It makes me sad.  He said it’s called Wind’s Nocturne.  I wonder if he made it up, or if he really named it that.  Dad does strange things sometimes…I’m real sorry Val.  T.T please don’t hate me, I promise not ta be bad no more.  I’ll try super-duper hard! 

 

But yah, here’s my dad’s song for me.

 

Wishing on a dream that seems far off,

hoping it will come today.

 

Into the starlit night,

Foolish dreamers turn their gaze,

waiting on a shooting star.

 

But, what if that star is not to come…?

Will their dreams fade to nothing?

When the horizon darkens most,

We all need to believe there is hope.

 

Is an angel watching closely over me?

Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see?

I know my heart should guide me, but,

There's a hole within my soul.

 

What will fill this emptiness inside of me?

Am I to be satisfied without knowing?

 

I wish, then, for a chance to see,

Now all I need, (desperately)

 

Is my star to come...

 

Dad talks in riddles lotsa times…he never gives me the answers.  He says it is best ta learn the answer, than ta have it given to ya. 

 

If that’s the case, then I want that shootin’ star ta come down an tell me the answer then, cause I dunno wha’s goin’ on.  At least shootin’ stars give straight answers. 

…I think…?

(OOC:  I think this song is very suiting not only to Tuc, but also very much so to Rezo.  lol for a few lines at the very least.  I'm sure you will agree.  It seems like a song made for both Tuc and Rezo.  I'll give you a copy sometime <3 ^_^  )